Nine

See what happened before this.

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I went home over Christmas break and spoke to Luke almost everyday. It was wierd being back in my home town. I didn't feel like I belonged there anymore. My heart was in Denver, Luke was in Denver and I so desperately wanted to get back there. Also, my true life was in Denver. I made AJ and Shawnda swear that they wouldn't tell anyone in Lake Worth about what was going on with me in Denver. I wanted to do that in my own time.

On my last night in Lake Worth, I called Luke again. He didn't answer and I got a weird feeling about it all. Later, that night when I was asleep he called and left me a voice. "We need to talk' the voice mail said.

The next morning, when I got up I heard the message and immediately called him. He didn't answer and I got on the plane back to Denver, not knowing what to expect when I arrived.

I got back to my apartment and called him a few more times, and still no answer. This continued for about 3 days until he messaged me on AOL. 'Can I call you?' he said and then he did.

I don't know how long we talked or what we talked about other than he broke up with me because I was bisexual and he feared that I would leave him like I left Marian for someone else. No matter what I said, I couldn't convince him otherwise. I hung the phone up crying and in ruins.

I didn't know how I messed this up. I was finally being myself and was being punished for it. Or so I thought. I felt betrayed, I felt angry and almost instantly I knew what to do. What had to be done in order for me to get him back. Now it was a matter of getting the courage to do it.