Eight.

See what happened before this.

After the conversation with Brian I didn't really come any further out of the closet. I began to tell those close to me that I was bisexual. I believed that I still could be with women and didn't have to hide the secret of enjoying being with a man.

Once, I had my bisexual revolution I felt it was time for everyone to meet Luke. I remember that night clearly, we were having a party at our apartment(but really when weren't having a party at our apartment?)and I told everyone that someone I was dating was going to be joining us at the party. I didn't say he, I said someone.

Shawnda, AJ, Cory, and our new friend Wendel were all there when Luke walked in the door. Shawnda hit my arm and screamed, "Why didn't you tell me?" and I just shrugged getting up from my chair and hugging Luke as he walked into the door. I should have warned him but I didn't, he walked in and got blindsided. Something that would come back later to haunt me, yet at that moment I didn't realize it.

We all had a really good time that night and even after some liquid courage let Marian know that Luke and I were dating. She seemed happy and I honestly felt that she was happy for me.

That night Luke spent the night with me. It was amazing, I didn't have to hide anything anymore but the truth, the truth that I wasn't bisexual. That was something I had a hard time letting go of.